Mood: Heartbroken
Fuelled By: Nothing. Totally unfuelled.
Listening To: The overwhelming sound of silence

I am so hurt right now that I can physically feel it. A sinister darkness is enveloping me, and eating away at my very soul. I honestly never thought this would hurt so much. I feel as though my heart has been ripped out, stamped on, kicked around the floor and then given back to me.

Why was I so foolish as to believe that the sheer nature of our relationship would enable me to walk away so easily? Yes, it's been awful, horrendous at times - but deep inside me I am so very much in love with that man I first met. The man who made me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world. Even if it was only for a little while.

The nights are so hard

Paige